I was CONVINCED

I recently shared a post on Instagram, and when I was writing the caption, I had so many more thoughts than what I originally shared. I wanted to share more so I decided I'd add them here.

The reel I posted started with saying: "Me to me the last 6 years: Sounds like you just need to clear clear clear and then try try try" with the sounds of the ocean in the background. You can see the ocean coming up onto the shore and the sun getting lower towards sunset in the distance. Not important at all to the point of this blog post but I wanted to add that the video I chose for the reel was from a trip we took to see some family in South Carolina. We took our girls and their cousins to Folly Beach and I like to film peaceful scenes when I am in beautiful places. The video was shortened down to about 10 seconds for Instagram. The rest of the video is of my girls exploring the beach and finding shells.

Okay so let's get into it! Below is what I said and what I wanted to add.

What I said:

"*try aka experiment, without it requiring a whole lotta willpower*

I was CONVINCED that I was my programming. 

I was convinced (and really confident) that there were things I could either ignore or avoid so that I could keep moving towards success in my goals and desires. 

I was convinced that when that didn’t work “that’s just who I am, apparently”. 

But even more than that though, there were hidden desires and programming I didn’t even know were there, messing stuff up! 

I was convinced by lie based programming deep in my subconscious, there, just cozy and snuggly, were ME. 

That comes up for me still, obviously, I’m not a resurrected and perfected being (yet 😉), but you can bet not as much as it did before. 

I am now convinced I can become, do, & have (heal) way more successfully than ever before. Up to this point, I have experienced that over and over again, I’m not just talking out of my butt. 

Ethical and Christ aligned energy work with God can (and will) do that for you. 

So what are you waiting for? More signs? If so, here’s one 😊 let’s get to work!"

What I wanted to add:

Willpower: my thoughts on it. Have you ever tried something, maybe new to you or you've decided to change the direction your life was going in, and it took everything in you to stick with it or to keep going? After it took everything, including white knuckling, did it feel impossible to sustain, at some point, at the level you were hoping for? Yeah, me too. Willpower literally means to [possess] "the ability to control your own actions, emotions, impulses, and attention despite competing stimuli." How easy is that when your actions, emotions, impulses and attention are usually in full motion and momentum towards a certain direction, and when you want to change that direction (the desire to change, do something new, new goals, etc.), you can only really sustain that effort or power of will for so long before you can't anymore? Okay, stay with me. I am going to talk solutions, which if you're here, you probably know already is energy work based. There is hope, and I don't take using that word lightly because I know how hard changing your direction can be, I do it daily at times at this point in my life. But when I FIRST began trying to change the momentum in my life when MOST things were going in a direction I didn't want to keep going in (damn near impoverished, living on food stamps/WIC, in low income housing and barely making it, incredibly negative sense of self), I had hope that things could change... I just didn't know how yet at that point in my life. The answer was energy work.

Let's keep going below on the thoughts I wanted to add to this caption.

Why I say "try try try *without a whole lotta willpower*": Because willpower alone won't get you where you want to go. The energy therapy I aim to do with both myself and my clients focuses on LONG LASTING, SUSTAINABLE CHANGE. While using and employing ethical and Christ-centered and aligned energy therapy practices. I'm not here to jerk you around and keep you dependent on me. I wasn't created that way. My whole goal in energy therapy is to get you to the point where you naturally become the person who is and does the things you say you want become and do. To have the things you say you want to have. ANY goals you have... that are ethically, legally, and morally based of course.

Programming:

Ahh and now here we are, at the root of the problems and issues we face in our lives. If you're religious, we call this the natural man in his/her natural state. If you like tech analogies, this is your CPU that's really running the show. It's what shows up in daily life, what you 'display' and how it's performing is evidence of what programming, software, & codes are running in the background.

When I decided to change my life, I started where most everyone starts. I used my mental energy to come up with a new schedule, I read books and sometimes bought courses, I decided on new habits I would stick to, I set goals, I talked to my family about them in some instances to help them understand why I was doing certain things differently. Did this go well? It did for a little bit. It really did! Then the programming and software I was running said, uhhhh yeah no. We don't have the ability to do that. THIS (the old stuff) is what we do.

If you're like me, you may have childhood trauma i.e abuse (physical, mental, emotional, sexual), neglect (emotional, physical, etc.), and other abuse I haven't mentioned here. What that does to someone is what causes changing and implementing changes to be very difficult, or impossible when relying solely upon mental, emotional, and physical willpower. I'm not going to get into ancestral addictions, habits, beliefs, etc. in this blog, but that also plays a huge role for all of us.

Programming isn't ME:

BUT, as I pointed out in the caption, that programming isn't me. God created me and you perfectly. Does that mean we are perfect? I guess it depends on how you're looking at it. Do I believe He made a mistake in creating me/you? No.

Everyone is 'displaying' problematic things in life though, right? We all struggle with or avoid important things that needs our attention. We have problems and issues we're experiencing that we think could actually change (or have some hope they can/will). We do have habits and addictions that aren't getting us what we want. Yeah, so that's not perfect.

God led, Christ(ian) aligned Energy Therapy:

So how can I say I believe I (we) are created perfectly? Because we are not our programming. We are here to experience mortality and programming is part of the journey. To me that means to learn and grow and unbecome and become something new in all of the best ways. With God and through Jesus Christ, we can do that. I have done that in a lot of meaningful ways as a result of this specific type of energy therapy/work. Energy work with them speeds up the healing process in significant ways. Energy work that focuses on destroying, uncreating, deleting, undoing, and in some cases upgrading programming that causes me to stray from God, to do things that make me suffer, makes change difficult or impossible, and overlook opportunity is severely underrated. Because it is abstract at times. But when the scriptures talk about the mysteries of God, is that not the most abstractly beautiful idea?

I am now convinced/know:

Left alone to our own devices [programming], we stray from God in all sorts of ways. I support those who don't want that to continue being their story. I work with you to identify problematic programming and get rid of it using high integrity techniques and proprietary tools. That way, you don’t rely on willpower alone to change the things in your life that are really buggin’ ya. This is at the heart of what I do.

I didn't decide right away to do things with God when I began energy therapy. I didn't have the capacity to do that yet. I did have hope and I knew I wouldn't give up if I had the right support. The right support for me was someone who believed I wasn't my programming, was honest but kind when guiding me through energy therapy, didn't re-traumatize me, and was proficient in this kind of work because that person was doing the things they supported me in themselves. Oftentimes long before I met them.

I knew God loved me, and even though I wasn't able to call on a lot of mortal memories to serve me in that belief, I felt in my soul He did. So even when my programming said God didn't love me and had a TON of evidence to back it up (childhood abuse, neglect, etc.), the deeper place in me where He existed without limitation trusted He knew and loved me and I kept with energy work and therapy. I'm grateful I trusted that part of me and Him. I now have so much evidence that life can change the second I decide it will. I am the kingpin and it's wonderful to know and trust in that.

This kind of work, like other things in life, requires trust in someone who we hope is moral and ethical. To that I say, ask the God of Israel if that is true about this kind of work, and more specifically, my services. He'll tell you what you need and want to know.

I offer different kinds of sessions, for wherever you're at in your goals. Here's a short blurb about those below. The more detailed descriptions for the sessions are on my home and 'work with me' pages.

Energy Therapy: This service is for new clients who want supportive and healing work done on their behalf. You will be asked to choose two things you'd like to accomplish through session work each time. This session can be booked as a single session or as a set of 3 sessions. When you book 3, you get a bit of a discount.

Energy Therapy/Coaching: This service is for clients who are already familiar with my work, want healing and supportive work but are also ready to dive more into energy therapy techniques and getting guidance, coaching-wise on the things they're facing.

Mentorship: This service is for clients who have had at least 3-5 Energy Therapy/Coaching sessions with me and are ready to support their own clients, dive deeper into techniques, certification, and coaching. This is for serious learners and a year long commitment, so the commitment I make is also as big.

All sessions happen over the phone.

Explore my work with me page if you're ready to get started. I look forward to the opportunity to support and work with you!